There is a longing, a pulling in my chest

I can feel it as it whispers to me

When I lay awake at night

And the memories play over,

Wash over me in waves

I find my comfort in the fireworks of emotions

The ethereal light and vast darkness

For they remind me,

Of what it means to be alive

The privilege in bleeding

Is to know that you’re human

The beauty of healing is,

to know of love

Light and darkness as they intertwine

they dance together

As without the other, there is no either

there is immense strength 

in finding the beauty in suffering,

And finding peace in a ship at sea,

through the storm of night

There is a lighthouse that guides me

as I lay awake at night,

I feel the whispers turn into a scream

I don’t fear it, for it has become my friend

Awakens, as I sink further down to rest

The ocean, it swallows me

as the moon, i know, it watches over me

What an immeasurable gift it is,

To feel so deeply

And to feel,

It all at once.